I'm deciding to be completely vulnerable on this blog because that's a big lesson that the Lord has taught me this week! This first week of training camp has been the most uncomfortable and stretching week of my entire life. But I can say with full and complete confidence that I have never been more thankful. Praise God! 

I just flipped back in my journal to see where my heart was on day one of training camp and I was stunned when the pages just kept flipping. In one week the Lord has given me enough words to fill 20 pages of my journal. I am amazed by how much the Spirit has challenged me with in such a short amount of time. While sleeping in a (sometimes wet) tent, waking up on a deflated sleeping pad, wearing dirty clothes, taking only two showers with a bucket of water, and usually leaving a meal still pretty hungry, the Lord has made me immensely full with His word, Spirit, and the community I have with my squad. I have never been more joyful or full of the spirit in my entire life. God has absolutely torn the identity I thought I had to pieces and given me a completely new one. I have told myself for years that I am not valuable, recognized, or worthy of sharing my voice. This week God has told me that I am not only loved, but I am CHOSEN, VALUABLE, and ENOUGH. THANK YOU FATHER! The Holy Spirit has reminded me over and over again that He wants to hear from me because He has created me to have a voice to share with others. It is not His will that I would continue to speak the lies of the enemy over myself, He desires complete freedom from the snares of the enemy and I am so ready to walk into that with some more prayer. 

A prayer request I would like to share with you guys is that the Lord would give me boldness and confidence both in Him, and who I am in Christ and who He has created me to be as a member of His kingdom. Praise God that I am a member of a kingdom that values me and desires to have me as one of its members! I want to be able to use my voice in confidence to share the testimonies that the Lord has done in my life. I also want to be able to use my voice to share my ideas with others. The Lord is already tearing down strongholds that have built up in my life for years that I didn't even know were keeping me in chains. Pray that the Lord would only continue to break the chains that are holding me back from becoming more like Christ and being filled with His Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit is such a precious gift that we as believers have been given and I want to be able to share it with complete confidence and boldness! 

I want to thank you all for the prayers and support throughout this whole time. I am finally here and the Lord is working in ways that are completely wrecking me for His kingdom, and it is only going to continue. I wish I could share my whole journal with you guys just so you could get more of a glimpse of just how much the Lord is working through this training camp. I know that I must continue to press into His work because I know that it is within His will that I am here for these next 9 months so that I can further His Kingdom to the nations and also back home when I return. The work of God is indescribable, and I am amazed that the Lord has chosen me to share His goodness, because I am so unworthy!

 Lastly, I am still around $2,300 away from being fully funded. I have full confidence in the Lords provision and if you want to be a part of that you can still donate by clicking the big orange button above! You are investing into kingdom work by doing so and I value every single donation so much more than I can express! I miss you all so much and am praying for you all incessantly. Thank you for providing me with a community that I love so much and can say that I miss so much. You guys are incredible. THANK YOU JESUS!

So, so, so much love!

Ryann